I've been doing a ton of juggling. Remember a couple of posts ago when I mentioned I did something i was ashamed of...never mind again I was almost going to post it but I'm still not 100% ok with it. Anyway another guy has been added to the mix. He works for a kayak company in his spare time. So I met "Kayak" about a month ago at a party. He's hilarious and I had a great time with him but he lives out of town with zero plans of moving here. Because of this I never expected to hear from him again, but he found me through mutual friends on facebook and has been texting me every day since. Its all purely sexual and we have no plans on getting to know eachother on any other level. Kayak is married.......him and his wife have an open marriage. I did not have sex with Kayak. Of course he's interested, I told him he had to come back with a permission slip from his wife. Even though they might be ok with all this I'm not. It completely fucks with me morally and I feel like the world's biggest hypocrite. So that is the real reason why i don't want to get to know him any better. I don't want any kind of real relationship with this guy. He's funny and I bullshit with him regarding my love life.
I was telling him the other day about Suzuki...things have been going on with Suzuki. We've hung out a couple of times now. We've had two different make out sessions. I love kissing. But besides that, nothing is really happening. Kayak was telling me that Suzuki should be putting forth some effort. We both agreed that it sucks being with someone that acts like they could take it or leave it, either way no big deal. I want someone passionate. I feed off of that, the more someone wants to be with me the more I want to be with them...when it comes to sex.
When it comes to other things I'm not sure what's leading me. Right now I have a few options...Scorpion, Soccer Dad, Suzuki, Honda, Kayak.....All I want is freaking Wheelin. How do you stop liking someone? Can you stop liking someone and remain friend's with them?
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