Ugh! So I've been hanging out with Chess. Nothing long term is going to end up of that. He is too judgemental of people, it really bothers me. The other MAJOR thing is he has a tiny package. So tiny I knew it was tiny without him even taking his pants off....if you're grinding with someone and getting hot and heavy and you can't feel a damn thing that's a bad sign. Can we read that again and say "hypocrite"! Yeah, I know....but if you have ever fallen for someone with a great size package and then the next person that comes along is small....it just doesn't work. If I really liked him it would make a HUGE difference. Since I don't, it just doesn't work.
Wheelin knows about Chess, (not the package part). So, is it coincidence that all of a sudden Wheelin is hanging around more often? First he invited me to a military dance (ball). Then he helped me find a motorcycle, we've been working on the bike together wed/thurs/fri/sat. Finally I started the couch to 5k program so I could do the toughmudder in October, well Wheelin offered to help train with me for that too...so we ran together 3 times last week. I told Wheelin that Chess was a great distraction in helping me get over him. So should I look at all this as Wheelin thinks I'm finally in the friend zone and we can hang out more....even though we did sleep together twice in the past few weeks. I know!!!!! I'm a fucking idiot, but I can't start to think that he's jealous and trying to win me over....I can't think that way, it just gives me false hope. I have to remind myself, that I like him way more than he likes me and that I don't want that!
Fucking Chess!!!! If he had a bigger pawn we would probably be a lot better off!
P.S. The pic above is what my bike looks like.
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