I'm not upset over your new boy. I'm upset because this was our deal, and I wanted us to finish it together. YOU were the one approaching me to buy the ninja. We agreed that I would help you find a bike like the ninja and do what I did to the Ninja to your bike together, helping to bring it to working order. You agreed to that. I told you it might take a little while, but it would be worth the money saved. You said ok... If you wanted a bike that you could ride soon, then why did you agree to what we said to do? Why didn't you go find your own bike that was working, and paid more money for it on your own? Its like you just used me to obtain the thing, then you go and do whatever you please. That is why this was our deal, so when it comes down to it, you come first.
Calling me to ask if I was ok with it getting finished, would have shown me that you were at least thinking about my feelings. But you didn't call, you didn't even consider my feelings, you were only concerned with yourself, and spending time with your new boy, and look! here's an opportunity to do that AND get my bike going, and that is what hurts the most, when it comes down to it, you come first. IT feels like you are replacing me.
"No I didnt realize you were that excited over working on the bike." How you missed this is completely beyond me.. So please tell me what I WAS excited about then... I even told you the first AND second Saturday we were working on it together, "I'm really excited about getting your bike working." How much more fucking plain do I need to be? Do I need to find a way to put the words in a syringe and inject them into you so that I make sure you received it? All this tells me is that you don't pay any attention, and when it comes down to it, you come first
Your email isn't helping at all either. "by allowing someone who is very experienced with bikes help me work on mine" Nice. So now this guy is the be all end all of experience on bikes, therefore everything should be ok, and I especially should be ok with anything he does because of that, oh yeah and also i'm not experienced either. Then of course you had to turn around into you, about how I joke around about other women. How is that supposed to help me deal with this situation? Then why did you bring it up?
Lastly, all of this I have done for you. I've received absolutely nothing for any of it. In fact if anything its cost me. I gave you expensive free parts, bought you lunch, used my gas, used my expertise and knowledge to find the thing AND go look at it, then make a decision if it was worthwhile to buy, negotiated the deal for you, haul it around for you, take it to your house, use my tools, lend my tools, lend my time, show you how to take things apart, show you where things are supposed to go, meticulously go through parts on the bike with you to make sure when it goes back together that it works and it will stay that way for a long time, get you discounts on parts, tell you what you need, show you where to buy things, use more time, get the thing almost put together, not to mention that if I would have just decided to keep it for myself and not let you know about it, I could have put some much needed money in my pocket. I'm sure you would have been completely understanding about that too wouldn't you. so please EXCUUUUSE me that maybe the reward I was looking forward to, was completeting something I did with my friend together from start to finish, and the smile it brought to her face when it was all done and working, as I set her off on her first ride down the street on her new bike (sure this moments probably passed too, thanks R6) as my only reward, yet it being all I really would need, and made the whole thing worth it...
But when it comes down to it, you come first.
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