
Remember how I told you that Wheelin was working on my bike with me lately? Well I've had my bike for over a month, we just kept missing eachother to work on the bike. We've hung out almost everyday that I don't have my kids, we're still running. We missed a couple of days running because he had friends come in from out of town and he invited me to hang out with them...so I did. After I hung out with Wheelin I would meet up with R6. R6 is really growing on me. He treats me exactly how I want to be treated. Well Friday, I'd been telling Wheelin all day how I wanted to work on my bike. He wasn't feeling well and up for it so I left his house around 8pm and went home. Called up R6, he brought over beer and the two of us worked on my bike and got everything done. The next morning Wheelin called me wanting to know if I wanted to work on my bike. When I told him, it was all done, he got mad. Later in the day I asked him what I could do to fix it. His response is in the first line of the following email I just sent him. He is ignoring me and hasn't spoken to me since saturday morning.
Hi,
You texted me “Nothing is going to change it. Nothing will change anything. I’m really upset with you”. I never would have thought that our friendship was that conditional, especially lately when everything had been going so well. You told me just the other day that I was one of your closest friends here in town. I messed up, by allowing someone that is very experienced in bikes help me work on mine. My bike was our project. No, I didn’t realize you were that excited about working on it. I was thrilled with the bike you helped me find and buy, it’s been over a month and I really wanted it done. No matter what you will always be the person that helped me get my first bike, don’t think it was worth it now if it’s going to cost me our friendship. Are you really ignoring me and this upset with me because you didn’t get to help me change my oil and put in the lowering links?
You wanted me aware that I didn’t push my friends away, because of a guy coming into my life. I have that running through my head regularly. I have made time for you and hung out with you almost every day that I didn’t have my kids. Wheelin, this past year you have meant a lot to me…at some times, you meant too much. Have you not noticed the impact you’ve had?
I don’t like how easily you get upset with me. You’ve told me how I’ve disrespected you lately, whether it was while running or when it comes to R6. I’ve told you how I found you commenting on chicks to me, at every opportunity was disrespectful; I even got upset with you when you commented on my facebook pic regarding how cute my friend was and how I needed to grow my hair out. Who do you think ended up reprogramming that time? Wheelin, I don’t even try to bring you around my friends because of it. I don’t want to hear how big their tits are, how hot they are or when can we have a threesome together. I have brought this up several times. I’m sorry if wanting to quit running and whining through it is disrespect to you, right after you ask me not to.
So far, R6 is a really great guy. I was hoping you two would get to meet soon, doesn’t seem like that’s going to happen now. I don’t completely understand why you’re “sensitive” about me hanging out with him. For over a year I’ve wanted to be with you. You chose what you felt was the best option for you…I’m not considered a possibility for years. Even then I would have been just a possibility, pretty slim odds. I knew it would be tough or near impossible for me to be friends with you, but I tried reprogramming anyway. I didn’t think it would be you that would let something like this get in the way of us being friends. If you’re done with me, let me know.
***UPDATE*** His response, via text: "I'm really hurt, sad and irritated with you. You're email did not help at all"
***UPDATE*** His response after I didn't respond: "I'm not trying to ignore you, and I'm not done with you, but it will be awhile before I'm ok about stuff, sure you won't hesitate to fill your free time with R6 anyway"
my response "Keep me posted"
I am sure you probably don't want to hear this, and well, I understand. It took me a LONG DAMN time to get rid of a toxic guy in my life. But that is what Wheelin' is and deep down you know it. In order for you to move on and be happy, you need to let that one go, sweetie. xoxo All the best!
ReplyDeleteThanks Carolina girl! I do need to hear that.
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