Listen up yall...

Am I sabotaging....or am I just realizing that I don't want to be with someone and just push them away every PMS moment I get? BFF says that I wouldn't be sabotaging if I really wanted to be with the person. That I'm seeing red flags and started pushing away.

I'm worried. I don't want to mess up something good. Wheelin is not the man of my dreams....he's a decent guy with an amazing cock. He is nice and very helpful. But I don't like that he seems to enjoy pointing out my flaws. I tell him repeatedly that I don't know how he feels about me and somehow he continues to dance around the topic. That should be all I need to figure that out. If I'm the one sabotaging why am I also the one that keeps telling him how much I like him? Why is it that I discount so easily the things that he does do, that are suppose to reflect his feelings to me? Is it the love languages? Not sure I even completely believe in those anymore...and I think Buffer stayed with that book. No whats hilarious....yesterday would have been me and Buffer's 2 year anniversary. Fuck I waste time with people.