I try to do as little facebook/myspace stalking as possible. I never usually find anything that I want to. Usually just end up finding things that bother me. I also don't have internet at home (single mom that can't afford it), and I can't get to those sites at work. So I normally don't have time for stalking. The other night I was using Starbuck's "free" internet and decided to go to my ex's myspace page. His page isn't private and I haven't been on it in over 2 years. I decided a while back to never go to see him and his wife's page. Well temptation overcame me. I was very happy with myself, that reading his page didn't hurt anymore like it use to. Seeing pictures of them with my girls, didn't bother me like before. The thing that stayed with me the most and left me thinking was the comments section...he only has 5 pages of comments, and if I went to the oldest ones (which were from 3 years ago) he still had all the lovey dovey and funny comments I had left him when we were married and happy. He's a guy...which means he probably has never gone that far back in his comments and has forgotten they were even there. Then I would have to follow a similar path of logic to think that his wife (my ex-bestfriend) has forgotten about them too or doesn't mind them there? Like I said I'm probably reading too much into it, but crazy enough it made me smile. I don't think I can explain why.
I hope someday I can get to the point where looking at my ex on fb and his girlfriend doesn't sting. But mine's too fresh, just a few months. UGH. Men suck.
ReplyDeleteHang in there girlfriend with the kids and life and everything. Hopefully a change is coming soon!!! :)